While I did not know your dear mother or you, the thoughts you wrote about her touched my heart. While I don’t understand exactly how you feel, please know that God does and will keep raising you up. I hope that this scripture will help a little… ”I have grown numb and become completely crushed; My anguished heart makes me groan aloud. O Jehovah, all my desires are before you, And my sighing is not hidden from you. For on you, O Jehovah, I waited, And you answered me, O Jehovah my God.” (Psalm 38:8, 9, 15). If you like to take a self-guided tour of the Bible, please go to the jw.org website.
Mom you have given me and many others more than just the gift of life, from the very beginning you have been there for your kids and family. Words cannot even describe the relationship we had together as only you and me could know in our heart just how close we were.. my mother, my best friend, the only one who could make me even smile in my darkest times raising me, you showed me the good in this world and within family no matter how distraught we were at some point, you never hesitated to jump up and support me with ANYTHING I was going through and never complained not a peep.. only ready for the next thing to come up just show you could prove to me again just how amazing of a mother person you are to be able to do so much for me even when you were not in your prime. It never mattered to you you were a warrior no doubt but such a beautiful and good hearted warrior that to me it made you the perfect person in my eyes, it's hard to explain how I even feel right now but I know you know.. Ik you are somewhere, watching me and listening.. i know because of how bad you wanted to see me grow up to be a man and be successful I knew just how proud you were even now mom and that is one of the best feelings I've ever felt seeing you get so excited and happy over my accomplishments in life and the past few years and I fucking adored every second of those moments. Mom I miss you more than anyone could know and I'm trying so hard to process this thoroughly believe me, but again you were more than just a mom you were the light in the dark you were the only person in the room that could make a whole house light up with joy in a matter of seconds you had the attention of everyone around you , I believe the signs even now that you are right next to me smiling at me and admiring me like you always have.. it feels like I was just in elementary and how you would come sleep in my room every night while I would stay up and frolick and you would sit and talk and talk about school about everything going on with me and showed such interest even then I knew just how much you cared for me and adored me as your baby boy you were my knight in shining armor.
And I mean that with complete sincerity, my mother has ALWAYS put herself before her kids and it breaks my fucking heart knowing I didn't have enough time to be able to buy her the beautiful things she deserves and care for her like she has always done with me growing up , only you know the words I can put in a sentence for you because we have had that many times and you understood me unlike anybody in this world and I believe that to be a magical blessing I see how many family's can be so torn apart and would remain in a sideways form that you just absolutely would not let happen to yours.... you touched so many people's hearts down here on Florida and we all love you more than you ever realized
Making people happy and lifting them up at there worst was more a hobby for you you made it look so easy I've never witnessed any soul touch a persons mind and heart like you did mom and it was just another way of just how beautiful you are and how pure your soul was even in the shittiest situations.. Ik in my heart you would give you least breath just to tell your children just how much you loved us and wanted us to make you proud that I can hear you saying it to me in my mind even now. I swear you're still out there and Ik you will always be my guardian angel to watch me grow up and be the best I promised you at your death bed just how proud how I'm gonna make you I look around me and we've talked about this so much I promised you I won't be the follower that we seen in a lot of people I won't stray from the path I've had set in my mind since I could remember, you knew just how capable I am and still are of doing the things I wanted to and accomplish, I will make my own path mother and I know you will be right beside me watching me become a successful man and father in life, I am the apple of your eye mother and I'll make you so happy I swear it .. just wish you were here to be here for it bc you know how much your happiness means to me.
You made the word "family" seem like a real thing to me and we're the only one that could bring us together like never before and we knew it was because just how happy it made you to see your children laugh and hug each other and help each other cry with each other we knew just how much you loved for us all and it was a gift that not many people can say they have and we appreciate you more than you can ever know mother you are our angelic warrior that heaven will be lucky to have in there realm.. We know that Tommy (god bless) will make you comfortable and Ik you will be overrun with joy and love the moment your two souls meet ... it helps a lot knowing you are in no pain and with such two great hearts together and such a close bond being with our tommy.. you and him to me had the same exact heart of gold and it was absolutely beautiful thing to know this ALL here all of us mom because of No one else other than you!
I will live up to my last names meaning an will make you so proud mom
Growing up I always looked up to my brother nick ,Sean,mark more than they know and my mom always helps me to realize that , she knew me better than I knew myself and pushed me to best no matter what had to be done and regardless what we been through my brothers and sister that have lived down here have done more for me and have impacted my life more than they could know all of you make me so damn proud just for me to call you my BROTHER and SISTER it's a good feeling and I couldn't ask for any better brothers.. fucking love you guys more than you know and mom loved us all to the core I know we will make her proud
The apple of your eye (The Last Mohican)
Love You Mother
Prayers r with your family. RIP Rita
Thoughts and prayers go out to the family and friends.
My thoughts and prayers for your family! RIP Rita ⚘